Christmas excitement and other joy

Hello there. Honesty, I don't have too much to share, but I am in a blogging mood. So, as I sit here on my giant lovely couch, with holiday music playing (the only reason I like Comcast is for this channel that plays non-stop Christmas music), drinking hot chocolate and eating Cane Cane Joe Joe's (the best cookies every, pretty much), I am going to blog.

Last night I had an interesting experience. I was on a double date pretty much with an ex-boyfriend. Sure, it's been two-ish years, but still, so weird. We were all in play production together (his new girlfriend, Bryn, and I are still close and still in the class while the boys have both graduated) and it was really great to be with them. We had dinner that Denis and I made, went to Cupcake Royale (if you ever end up in Seattle, go there please) and came back to my place and watched Ratatouille because New York, I Love You only plays at weird hours in the middle of the week because it's two and a half hours long or something. I reaaaally want to see that film, though. It was fun. Double dates are a lot of fun, even though I was initially opposed to them so many months ago. We've only had good experiences.

What else, what else...Oh yeah! We finished blocking the play, sort of. It's a little rough right now but tech is on Wednesday, so we don't have much time. We'll probably have a few extra rehearsals from now to next Thursday when we open, but ahhh. It's exciting! Having a lead has been such a great experience for me. I feel so much like my character at times; it really is fantastic. I wish everyone in the cast was as into their roles as I was, but we'll see how that changes as we approach opening night.

Speaking of that weekend, Hank is coming here! I really hope that I'll be able to see him, because he's in Portland on Friday the 20th (coincidently the night of a performance and my one year anniversary with Denis), so I told him he should do something in Seattle during the afternoon of the 21st then come see my show that evening xD That would be pretty awesome.

I have no motivation right now. I just keep stopping and thinking and that is all I want to do all day. Imagine I am doing other things while I sit here and think about them. Oh, life. Speaking of things I want to do, roadtripping Route 66 (or what's left of it). Next summer. Who's with me? I seem to be the only one overly excited about this idea, which is a shame, but I have new odd travel ideas like this every month, so it could stem from that. I just need a big trip; an epic trip, if you will. Will all matters of transportation, please. Train, plane, car, boat, etc. Especially the first two, they are my favourites. I want to go to Portland...sigh. Need to stop thinking about traveling...

CHRISTMAS. It's everywhere. And it seems to bother just about everyone but me. I mean, yes, it's silly for Tully's to have Christmas trees in their windows and Starbucks to have broken out the red cups (which they received on October 13th, believe it or not!) but that just means good things to come, right? Christmas is a beautiful time of year. People are happy and there are pretty colours and lights and music and just... joy. In my mind, a bad Christmas is a total and complete oxy-moron and I want to personally fix Christmas for anyone who doesn't enjoy it. I can't wait to pull out my snowman cardigan and Christmas owl v-neck bought for me by the lovely Rita and just dance around my living room to this Christmas channel with the fire a-blazing. I've already started shopping online for people and can't wait to hit the stores and wrap presents! I LOVE wrapping presents! Christmas! Ah! Just spent half an hour shopping for people online.

So let me tie up this blog because Denis is coming by and needs his laptop for homework. I am going to listen to more music, read The History of Love and relaaax. Hope this is reaching you at a relaxing moment, too!

Forgot to mention I posted a ton of new photos on my flickr, so go check those out!

Fashion section:

I wasn't planning on adding one today, but you guys seemed really enthusiastic about it, so I'll throw in a little something. I have so many inspirations and next to none of them reside on a runway. Sure, I love me some Marc Jacobs, BCBG, Balenciaga and DKNY, but rarely do I refer to them as influences. I am a street style girl and adore sites like Lookbook, tumblr and various blogs for inspiration. My idol is a lovely French girl named Betty, whose blog I have been reading for a couple of months now. No idea how I stumbled upon her, but boy am I glad I did. She has introduced me to new sites, new styles and given me tons of new ideas for my own wardrobe. In addition, this girl's blog is awesome with all of the black and studs, which I am obsessed with as of late.

How's that for a first? What do you want me to talk about in this section? My influences, where I shop, outfit posts, what? Keep in mind, I suck at outfit posts, but I may be able to manage. We'll see :)

Book recommendation: The Gemma Doyle trilogy by Libba Bray. I was thinking about that today and I adored that series. If you haven't read and you are a female, get on that :) even if you just want to read the first one, as far as I remember, it's a great solo read.

Dollhouse tracker: Ready for new episodes! Enver Gjokaj is an accent and acting GOD. Seriously. So impressed every episode. Oh and 2x04 was brilliant, by the way. Aaaand next on our television agenda is Battlestar Gallactica! Woo!

(Can I mention again that I love Emily? Because I feel like we have been particularly mentally connected lately and I am so, SO excited to see her in January. I am making a list of things we need to do together as I type!)

Skewed Mustache

I am tired, so here's a list:

- I should have written a paper today, or the day before, or the day before...But I didn't. I hate procrastinating! It isn't me! But I now have about four hours to work on it tomorrow, so...cool.

- I'm currently in the last few weeks of production of Ivanov and I feel really, really good about my performance. I can't wait to share it with my friends and family and everyone. Until I can, however, there is so much I have to do, lines to memorise, tears to shed, etc.

- Please stop sending me emails about Glee. I get that you guys all love it, but it's not my kind of show and I have about twenty things I'd rather than do than read another email telling me to "give it another chance"! xD I'm not a fan of 97% of musical theatre.

- I am so happy that Halloween is over because it means Thanksgiving, which to me means CHRISTMAS TIME BEGINS. I am about ready to break out my carols (as soon as I have time to, you know, listen to music).

- The Pacific Northwest is officially freezing. Brrrrr.

- I missed free Chipotle and am still distressed, days later.

- I am not doing NaNoWriMo because I don't really enjoy writing novels (I've never been about to remotely finish one and the furthest I got was about sixty pages, front and back, handwritten in about seventh grade. My friends and I were ambitious little things...). On top of that I have tons of work, a show, a boyfriend, a social life, a deep infatuation with getting way too much sleep aaaand because I think pressing myself to write words, rather than a quality novel, is sort of counterproductive. I'm a quality over quantity girl. That's just how I've seen it; never been a fan of the activity but for those who are: that's really awesome and hope you...win. (I don't like how they call it "winning," haha. xD)

- I will do the fashion section of the blog at a later date. I'm happy you all liked the idea and gave such great feedback! I'd like to add that my other passion is traveling, but I didn't add that to the previous post because I was focusing more on passion that required some sort of "work," so to speak, rather than just something I love with all of my heart. If that makes sense...probably not.

- Seattle is kind of my favourite place in the entire world. This is a recent realisation, but it's very true. Or at least one of them.

- I love my sisterwives (don't ask) and can't wait for Emily Voss to come here and then possibly live here.

- Paper Towns is still my favourite non-Potter novel. Despite John Green being a lovely person and a friend of mine, he is also such a brilliant writer and I haven't acknowledged that enough lately.

- My boyfriend is the best person and I am very fortunate, to say the least.

- I need to take better photographs and go through the ones I currently have and post them.

- I am tired more than any person who gets at least eight hours, but normally more, should ever be. I think I have a problem. I can't get enough sleep! I go to sleep at ten at night, wake up at like..eight in the morning and am STILL TIRED. Not to mention the many, MANY evenings that I have sleeping issues due to my back, inability to fall asleep/back asleep, etc. Rawr.

This was much longer than intended...Sooo, goodnight, everyone! xx

P.S. For the person who informed me that River wasn't a Browncoat in my post when I talked about Halloween...I am aware that the sixteen/seventeen year old girl didn't fight in the war xD I was referring to myself when I said it feels good to be a Browncoat, haha. Just wanted to point that out because blogspot, sadly, has no way of responding to comments efficiently :(

OH LOOK A PICTURE:

Personal Style

Let me take a minute to try and describe what exactly fashion, or style, means to me. This is not a plea for attention or dig for compliments…. but I’m not that talented. Don’t you dare type comments rejecting that statement because I know it and I accept it. I have no special talents and I am not particularly good at what I do; that’s not to say I suck at everything, but I am just average at best.

When I realised this in about the end of eighth grade (so, when I was about fourteen, I believe?), I decided to search for something to express myself and have fun without worrying about how steady my hand was or how fast I could run or how well I could string words together. Something that made me happy. Clothing has made me happy for most of my life, despite a couple years in elementary school where I experimented with only wearing boy clothes (I call this the dark period.) My mother was a big inspiration for this passion because when I was younger and we were more well-off, money-wise, we would go on a lot of random shopping excursions. I loved going to a store with my mother and getting a new item of clothing; it was a satisfying and exciting experience. So I turned this into my "thing." It took a couple years for me to break away from buying an entire outfit from one store, instead of mix and matching and finding things that go together. But around the middle of sophomore year, age 15-16ish, it clicked. And it felt good. I'd found my thing.

I love buying clothes. Not expensive ones or designer ones, just all kinds. I adore digging through Urban Outfitters $10 sales racks or finding $2 items that can add to an outfit. It's just fun. I do consider style an art in it's own special way and I love proving that fashion doesn't equal money. When I see a piece of clothing I love, I immediately think of tons of ways to wear it, what to wear it with, how to make it mine. Nothing feels better than walking down the street and passing a person wearing the same dress you're wearing exactly as the store model wore it, rather than her own individual way.

There was a even short period of time where I wanted to actually study fashion (at FIDM), but I knew I would hate it. Never turn your hobby or passion into your life. Incorporate it, yes, but don't let it take over. Once fun becomes work, it's all work. I've learned that through photography classes, that is for sure. I also tried making my own clothes...that ended quickly since it required, you know, skill.

So there you have it. My passion is style. Call me materialistic, call me vain, call me whatever. I love it. It's something I can make entirely mine. It's something that I can do for the rest of my life and no one can take it from me.

How's that for a blog, eh? Haha. This actually took a while to write and figure out what I wanted to say. Hope you enjoy. And tell me: what is your passion?

P.S. I bought these today when I went to the mall with my mother today to get a birthday gift for my best friend. How amazing are they? So excited.

Why, hello there

I would like to start this by saying that I am currently dressed as River Tam for Firefly. I look awesome. I searched and searched today in two different thrift stores for Zoe or Kaylee costumes and found absolutely nothing, so I decided to go for my favourite character instead because her style is much easier to emulate. So here I am with my long, floral blue dress and crochet, cream colours sweater. Damn, it feels good to be a Browncoat.

What else do I have to watch you guys up on? Hm...Well I hate school. A lot. I am so done with both college and high school. I just don't care at all and that sucks on so many levels. The play, however, is going well. I had to kiss one of my good friends last week on stage, which was weird. But I'd also never felt so alive in my character than in that scene and it felt awesome, so there's that.

Denis' car got broken into when we went to downtown Seattle for his birthday (when he saw 39 Steps and loooved it). That was awful, but it's mostly cleared up now. He misses his GPS and Zune, which both got stolen, but he's got a new Zune which is much better than the old one. But RIP Richard TomTom and Zeke Zune.

I've spent way too much time shopping online lately. I haven't bought anything because I keep shopping on other countries websites and shipping costs more than the clothes which I want, pretty much. But I really want to travel with an suitcase empty of anything but my cameras. And, you know, fill them.

Finished season one of Dollhouse (finally), saw Where the Wild Things Are (horribly depressing, but lovely), failed epically at every assignment in my photography class, attempted to download photoshop online about ten times (and failed) aaaaand tried every possible way to get my Canon Vixia HF100 to work with this laptop (once more, I failed). Really, it's better that I didn't update you piece by piece with all of those things because they really aren't that uplifting.

As for current news on my life, I just got back form Tacoma this afternoon. I spent the weekend down there with Denis and his parents at his family friend Sophie's house. That was fun; I love when we get to hang out with her.

I've been really iffy about the internet as of late, however. I've stopped reading a lot of video comments because people have been saying things that juts bother me. I don't know, weird mood. Plus, I haven't had time to deal with it all, so I haven't. Sorry for my absence, I'll try to make more of a presence on my blog.

Also, would any of you take issue with me doing little fashion/style segments in my blogs? I suck at taking outfit shots (which is clear on my lookbook), but just, I don't know, other things? Let me know. It's not like you have to read it anyway and I'll probably do what I want either way, but just thought I'd put that out there xD

Have a good week, people. I should be back at some point during the week. Sorry there weren't more fun anecdotes to catch you up on, but there wasn't too much going on, to be honest.

Dollhouse Tracker: Just finished 2x02.

Book recommendation: I am currently reading The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman. I'm not far in, due to lack of reading time, but I'm a fan.

P.S. I'm jsut sending out my love to Molly (because it is her birthday), Sam (because I miss her) and Emily (because she needs to be right here, right now.)

Chai tea

I feel like I have more to write about than I probably actually do, but we'll see. This week has been ridden with exams, papers and line learning, so I'll save you from a play-by-play of each day. Today, however, has been rather relaxing. This is presumably due to the fact that I felt marginally prepared for my film exam and started the day off with a delicious mug of chai tea. Photography was long and boring and the film exam was a bit more difficult than I had expected, but it all went by fairly quick. I got to go to my favourite coffee shop with my best friend and talk about how much we want to move out.

I don't think I've ever talked about this in my blog, but I so desperately want to move out. It isn't that I loathe my parents or am excited to throw parties and go to college. No. I just want a new room with white walls where I can start form scratch. I want that clean feeling of only having the things I really love and really need. I want to leave behind all the nostalgic knick-knacks I have picked up throughout my life and start anew. Is that so much to ask? I think not. Plus, who wouldn't want to look at this beautiful apartment right next to the Paramount theatre and dream? Sigh, I really just want to be able to own one of these and be able to enjoy its beauty on white walls. (Seriously, I am currently OBSESSED with astrostars.)

Anyway, a cup of delicious soup and another chai later, I sat on my couch writing my wiki on Good Night, and Good Luck. Since finishing that, I have taken some photos, made a video and eaten some Joe O's (organic man's spaghetti-o's.) I wish that I had some funny anecdote for you, but it really has been a rather uneventful week as far as I can remember it.

Denis has started school, which is great. He likes it and thinks he'll love it. I'm a happy girlfriend for him, and not just because this means more delicious cooked meals, but also because he is doing what he loves and such :)

Speaking of Denis, he should be picking me up soon for FlashForward and Fringe evening. It's strange having weekly television shows to watch; this hasn't happened in years, or at least it feels like years. I am happy that I have Denis to remind me, or else I would probably forget to tune in. Oh, got to go! Have a lovely evening and weekend if I don't blog again xx

Dollhouse tracker: 1x08. I like it much more now; you guys were right. I am not that addicted, but I will certainly continue to watch :)

Book recommendation: The Americans by Robert Frank. RF is a Swiss photographer who, between 1955-56, toured the United States taking over 28,000 photos. The book only has about 80 of them, but I definitely want a copy of this book.

P.S. Uh, want.